untitled.

Truthfully speaking relationships are a chore. Having to live your life with someone else is difficult. Consideration, respect, attention, compromise, understanding are easier written than done in a companionship. Its very easy to lose yourself and become self-less when you constantly put another person first. We must always remember that if I can't be happy, I cannot make anyone else happy and happiness starts within. A lot of people do not understand this and want to force a relationship for the sake of a picture, or the title. But a picture is only a picture and a title doesn't matter if their isn't depth to the story. We must have depth and identity of ourselves so we know what we are not and what is not acceptable.

Just thinking and writting.

logic VS emotion.

I always knew I was a logical thinker...but lately I see it more and more as I get older. I am convinced that I have a Type A personality so I have to deal with it.
I care more about work than my social life and I'd rather have a successful career than the "soccer mom" life. I have a very black and white answer to almost every question and am CONSTANTLY looking over my goals in my head. "when am i gonna finish this..what do i have to do to get here..no that's not enough time..i have to do this to get this..." talk about STRESS. this works perfect because I don't like being in want or need for anything.

This is not to say that i'm an emotion-less freak, I just am wired to think with my mind vs heart.

i know that it's wrong. i do, i do.